No, I didn’t die

Looking at this blog, it’s been over a year since I wrote anything. I’ll just list my excuses:

  • I was overworked on some agency projects and there simply wasn’t enough time to write posts
  • It’s generally a grey area to write about problems solved for clients who make me sign an NDA
  • I could have made the solution to the problem look generic, thereby obfuscating my client’s identity and thus my attachment to the project, but didn’t.
  • And now THE main reason….

I spent 8 months of 2018 taking a sabbatical. I like to call it a sabbatical because this is how you don’t lose respect from people when compared to saying “I’m unemployed and am enjoying watching my beard grow”. But really it was more like a “I’m fed up with insane projects that are under-staffed, with poor management and deadlines that don’t change, so ultimately the bottom-feeding developer who is doing the job of a small team on his own is starting to wonder if it’s time to pack it in and open a bakery, or do some other kind of artisanal work that involves repetitive, meditative movements and a certain degree of craftsmanship. <blows sawdust off his handmade hope chest>”

Sabbatical has a nicer ring to it and doesn’t require a backstory.  “Ah, he must be a well-to-do kind of man.”

This sabbatical was not about going to some coding retreat so to level up my skills as a developer. It was more like a sanity check. The reason I like coding and software engineering is that I find it to be a highly creative medium. For me, being creative is what gives life some meaning and makes it fun. The process of having an idea, developing it in your mind, putting it down on paper, refining and iterating on that, solving the unknowns, then finally doing the implementation / building. Then it’s done, you pat yourself on the back, revel in your accomplishments, then say “next!!” I love it. So the sanity check was a) to get a little distance from a profession that was starting to become not fun for me anymore, and b) do something completely different but also creative.

So I did that. In 2018, I decided I wanted to build a camper out of some kind of vehicle, then drive around North America until I experienced some sort of epiphany. I gave myself a year. I used 8 months. I built a camper. I had an adventure. I drove 24,000km in 4.5 months and saw so many beautiful places and met tons of very lovely people. I had some profound realizations about my life that were restorative and empowering for me going forward.

In short it was the most useful year I’ve had in over a decade. If you have the opportunity to take a long period of time off and leave your normal surroundings behind, I highly recommend it.  You’ll return knowing what changes you need to make in life.

True, I have fallen a bit behind with the latest and greatest in iOS / Swift dev, but since I’ve been back working (since November 2018), I’ve been fortunate to work with great developers and I’ve actually leveled up in this short time. I can say I’ve become way more of a test-driven developer, and I’ve also got a few new tricks up my sleeve that you generally get to learn when you work with other developers that work on your platform; not something I’m all that used to as I tend to be either the only iOS dev on a project, or they quickly say “oh but you know the most”.

At any rate, I’m back and I’m still happy to be a developer, and now that my approaches have changed somewhat, I have new areas to grow. So I’m not stagnating like I felt I was, and I’ve been fortunate to get a few freelance contracts that have not turned about to be a complete and total clusterf*ck, which has often been the case in Berlin, Germany. I oftentimes have the feeling that when it comes to Software Development practices, Berlin is the wild west; there are no rules, OR Berlin is teenage love; just fumble around in the dark for a while and hope something good happens.

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